Movie Mayhem with God Part 7: Wu Xia

Finally! Able to sit down to catch a good movie in theatres after so long. (I've actually watched another movie just days before this one, but was so insulted by its lameness and so ashamed of my stupidity and curiousity in going to watch it... I think by now you may have known which movie I'm mentioning about... :P )

Anyway, I was supposed to have was Wu Xia much much earlier ago with an ex-colleague of mine when we met up. However she had disclosed to me that she was a bit uncomfortable with watching in as she didn't like the "Wu Xia" concept, which she feels maybe against the lines of Christian teachings. Eventually, by God's plans, we didn't manage to watch it that day, and it was only till today was I able to catch the film.

Maybe due to my liberalness cum being an avid swordfighting novel fan since childhood, I feel that actually it all depends on how you interpret the movie. If you pray to God, asking him to show you his teachings in whatever you partake. This crucial aspect is how we relate and reconcile everything back to Him, the famous loving God with "all of heart, mind and soul".

In the movie, Donnie Yen plays a ex-killer, who deserted his murderous clan 10 years ago in search of a peaceful life, due to his guilt and remorse over a gruesome murder of an entire family, in particular one young victim. He has settled down in a village as a papermaker, married a virtuous village widow, and now has a happy family of two sons. However to his horror, his past catches up with him when two killers from a rival clan happen to pass the village and recognise him and launch an attack to kill him. In a bid to save the villagers while still keeping his identity secret, he skillfully kills them, making everything seem coincidental and out of sheer luck. This does not deceive the detective constable, played by Takeshi Kaneshiro, who deduces that Donnie Yen is not quite the simple villager he makes himself out to be...

The fighting scenes of the film are awesome (kudos to Donnie Yen again for being i/c of action screenplay) with the team behind the soundtrack being a huge boost to adding impact to the movie as it proceed. However the ultimate scriptwriter, God, peppers in His teachings in more precious nuggets.

The story emphasises on repentence, as the lead character wishes to turn his back from his cruel and murderous past. The detective constable however is not convinced by his sincerity. This is too is attributed to a dark past of himself, having been too merciful to a young convict in the past, thus giving the killer another chance to commit an even greater crime. Thus, the detective constable is disillusioned by the concept of mercy and repentance, always insisting on the governance of justice. Below is a conversation between the two, when the constable was grilling the lead on his past, illustrating their conflict.

Lead: Actually everything is interlinked and through fate. If I hadn't passed by the village 10 years ago and spotted my wife, I wouldn't have settled down here and married her. If I hadn't settled down here and married here, I wouldn't have taken up the job of being a papermaker. If I hadn't taken up the job of being a papermaker, I wouldn't happen to be in the store that day during the attack. If I hadn't been in the store that day, I wouldn't have run into those two men. If I hadn't run into those two men, they wouldn't have died. If they hadn't died, you wouldn't have come here to investigate me. All of us are equally responsible for everything in the world that happens.
Constable: Are you meaning to say that all of us are equally responsible for the crimes committed by murderers?

Lead: I wasn't mentioning about the context of murderers committing murder...

Another character in the movie, the lead's mother, also poses doubts to the concept of repentence and re-birth. She, under the lead's father (also clan master)'s orders, heads the first expendition to the village, committing mayhem and murder, in a bid to force the lead to showcase his swordfighting to save the village, and eventually make his compromise and return to the clan. At the final moment when the lead tries to stop her from falling into the rapids after a rigorous fight with her (one of the best kungfu moments in the film), she looks up at him and says "Who are you deceiving? You are still Tang Long. (The lead's original name)", before plunging into the depths.

Thankfully, the lead is saved from the depths of eternal sin and condemnation as eventually all these doubts and half-truths are reconciled back to God's teaching. What happens eventually can be really a literal translation of God's teachings... The lead undergoes death of sorts (with the grudging help of the constable's medical knowldge to put him in semi-coma state but to reawake him again later) to trick the second expedition, literally severs himself from him dreadful past (similar to what was in the previous movie "The Beaver" which I last reviewed). Most importantly during the final showdown between the lead and his father cum clan master, it is not through his own strength and ability in which the clan master is eventually defeated. In fact it is really through an act of God. The lead having slightly exhausted and distracted his father, manages to allow the constable an opportunity to use acupunture to attack his father's critical defense nerve points, rendering it vulnerable. Even then, it is a bolt of lightning from the heavy rain which strikes his father dead through that acupunture point, as his and the constable by then have been very badly injured, collapsed in a corner. From this way, it is a three-tier effort through which the villian is finally defeated.

Similarly, the three-tier relationship is also present in us Christians. This is namely God (represented by the lightning bolt), the Holy Spirit (the lead himself), and Jesus (the constable). Yes, sadly the constable eventually dies after this final battle but at his death moment, he himself is finally reconciled with the fact that repentence and re-birth does exist. Kind of a perfect fit of sorts in my view, as the concepts of judgement, repentence and re-birth all fall into place seamlessly.

During the night before the final battle between the lead and his father, this is the conversation between the lead and the constable. I think we Christians can take heed and keep it as a gentle reminder in our hearts...
Lead: Didn't I tell you not to come back?
Constable: Why didn't you murder me that day when you were leading me out of the village?
Lead: You promised to let me off.
Constable: Come on, did you think I would really let you off?
Lead: I trust you.

No one can see the kingdom of God unless they are born again.
John 3:3 (NIV)

For you have been born again, not of perishable seed, but of imperishable, through the living and enduring word of God.
1 Peter 1:23 (NIV)

But God raised him from the dead.

Acts 13:30 (NIV)

If your hand or foot causes you to stumble, cut it off and throw it away. It is better for you to enter life maimed and crippled, than to have two hands or two feets but to be thrown into eternal fire.

Matthew 18:8, Mark 9:46 (NIV)

Therefore if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come: the old has gone, the new is here!
2 Corinthians 5:17

At the end of the film, the lead settles down to the peaceful and tranquil life he so much wishes, taking on the passed away constable's tasks of moonlighting TCM. Now that his past is reconciled, his wife is finally at ease with telling him to return home in time for dinner daily. Likewise, when we are God's new creation, we are assured that we will be able to return for reunion with God in the home that we call Heaven. Amen!

Movie Mayhem with God Part 6: The Beaver

It's been a very traumatic weekend. I've just finished attending a 3-session introduction to a counselling course where the eventual counselling method was based on deliverance. I was recommended to the course by my cell leader and cell mates after all that I had been going through, especially the past 9 months. Of course the notion of me needing counselling did not have a positive connotation. I was actually very perverse to it due to my history. I won't give too many details about about my past or what happened this weekend. In fact even though I haven't gone through the actual counselling session (they will do the one-to-one session later) I was already experiencing immense spiritual warfare which unleashed itself partially today. Definitely doesn't look good to outsiders who doesn't know what is going on. Well, I certainly thank Jesus I have let some of the murky water that has been bottled up inside me come out this noon, and also for Him explaining to me the reasons why I was so bothered with its murkiness. Turns out I had so many misconceptions about the murkiness which need to be cleared. However, for now, He tells me that these are the issues, just wait and we'll deal with it later. I'll tell you when the time is ripe. Just rest now.

Thus, I went to watch a movie. Again. Ok, thankfully I had watched the movie with God in the theatre (and some public), as this movie needs to be watched with God accompanying you fully throughout, as even though the teachings behind the story is biblical, it is quite harrowing. Plot-wise it is about a depressed man (Mel Gibson), whose depression has led to such intense frustration amongst his family members that his wife (Jodie Foster) is forced to ask him to leave. In his despair, he found a puppet beaver which he uses as a therapy tool of sorts to deal with his relationships with everyone around him, and he regains his confidence in life...initially.

Ok, I'm kind of thinking how best to reveal the biblical concepts without giving spoilers about the movie. I think the best way is to write the verses down and for those with the courage to pray and then go watch the movie, you'll definitely know which verses inspire the parts of the plot of the movie.

And if your right hand causes you to stumble, cut it off and throw it away. It is better for you to lose one part of your body than for your whole body to go to hell.
Matthew 5:30

If your hand or foot causes you to stumble, cut it off and throw it away. It is better for you to enter life maimed or crippled than to have two hands or two feet and be thrown into eternal fire.
Matthew 18: 8

If your hand causes you to stumble, cut it off. It is better to enter life maimed than two hands into hell, where the fire never goes out.
Mark 9:43

Woah... Those teachings are very difficult to stomach leh... Definitely for me, as I know the things that are causing me to stumble cannot say cut then cut one. For me if can so literally cut off and throw away then it would be wonderful... Then how? Then how? This has been the point that has actually bothering me for the past 9 months. It then falls back to his teachings. If both He and you know this aspect bothering you in faith cannot be literally severed, then we can only pray and trust and then wait for his instruction to come. Don't go into panic mode with you feel you don't hear/see/feel/know anything. Aiya, easier said than done la. My past 9 months have been a horrible status anxiety constantly. Even now there is still residue and this blog is a form of prayer to Him for trust, patience, perserverance and peace... There is truth and wisdom to be found in His Word. However, being the creator of language and literature techniques, we must remember that God also uses this techniques in his teachings. Many of his famous teachings were in the form of parables. Those 3 verses quoted above seem very literal and straighforward when reading, but application is another matter altogether. The act of severing or cutting in those verses may actually mean another form of severing. At least for me, it means the severing of certain strongholds that the Evil One has on me, which sadly are not physical issues. Thus the pain and ardour of the process is of a different level. It is definitely traumatising. Today's round was only just an initial part of the severing. Darn painful really. Now the ultimate physician has told me, that's enough for today. Just go back and rest for now. When it is time for be it you, me or others to do anything, I Jesus Christ will instruct on how to proceed...

I'll just like to end up with a concept I extropolated from the movie, not sure whether it was part of the scriptwriter's intent. Sometimes, we see the four walls where we are in as enclosing us in a prison and we desperately want to break free. However, sometimes we yearn for those four walls us they symbolise room which God has specially allocated for us, to be protected forever safe from any fear and danger outside. Thus whenever we are at a lost of how to interpret something, pray to Him first to show how to read and analyse it.

We are often confused by some phrases. In the movie, it concludes with a graduation ceremony speech of a female character, saying that "everyone has been telling us a lie, "it is going to be alright"". Ok, the point at which the character says is valid, as she gones on to explain that even though everything may not be alright always, there is someone that is always there for us, watching over us. However an additional point I want to point out that, to turn the lie into an ultimate universal truth we just need to say "everything is going to be alright eventually". And this is also how the movie ends too... Praise God!

My Father's house has many rooms; if that were not so, would I have told you that I am going there to prepare a room for you?
John 14:2

Movie Mayhem with God Part 5: X-Men First Class

Was just chatting with the close Christian mentor friend of mine last week, about me being eager to watch X-Men: First Class. Then she remarked to me that her daughter had just watched it but didn't like it as it was like "all about war and killing".
Fast forward to today. I've just came back from the theatres and watched it. Yup, lots about war and killing but I think maybe her daughter missed moments when Cross-Man Jesus Christ was lurking in the movie. Afterall, Jesus Christ is The Ultimate Superhero, by doing many seemingly impossible things, turning water to wine, making lame walk, making blind see, healing lepers, making Lazarus rise from the dead, and his own resurrection. His score is impossible to beat.
Huh? Ok, then you may ask, which one is he? Prof X or Magneto? Ok, of course in the comic the good guys are definitely Prof X's X-Men, with Magneto's Brotherhood going to be the ultimate baddies. But when you look deeper into the character development of both leaders, actually traits of the ultimate superhero Jesus Christ lies in both. Scorecard breakdown below.

Professor X:
1. I know how you feel
Professor X is able to empathise with Magneto, literally, what struggles heartache pain, he went through. I think for us, we are assured, God knows spot on what and how we feel every moment and shares it with us.

For the Lord searches every heart and understands every desire and every thought.
1 Chronicles 28:9
You know when I sit and rise, you perceive my thoughts from afar. Before a word is on my tongue, you Lord, know it completely.
Psalms 139:1-4

2. Designing training ultimate PT style to make us become superheroes too
In the middle of the film when the mutants are forced to shift HQ as it was no longer safe, Professor X kicks start this series of ultimate training schedule, guiding all the mutants on how their skills can be used. Especially memorable is him slowly training Havoc, until Havoc is able to manouver and control his chest laser weapon, accurately on specific targets.
God also puts believers through a gruelling PT series called life, where he moulds our skills and abilties through challenges and obstacles, where we get better and better, using our capabilities only in ways that is to our good, thus glorifying him.

For I know the plans I have for you, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
Jeremiah 29:11

3. I can read your thoughts but I promise not to
Professor X promises Mystique that even though he can read her thoughts, he will never do it. As X-men fans know, eventually Mystique goes over to Magneto's camp and becomes Prof X's enemy but he never uses that power to pre-empt her for victory over Magneto.
In a slightly similar way, God knows every of our thoughts and decisions. However, he never really forces us against our will. His gift to us is free will to decide what we want to do.

I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in and eat with that person, and they with me.
Revelations 3:20

4. Striving for Peace
Professor X is definitely not into death, war and mass carnage. Early on it is he who dives into the water to save Magneto who was trying hard to "attract" the submarine up to avenge his mother's killer, but was in danger of drowning. Later on, he stops Magneto from starting an impending WWIII, at the expense of being shot in his spine and then eventually being paralysed. Hmm... slight martydom of sorts comparable to Jesus Christ's ultimate sacrifice by dying on the cross

Read on his cruxifiction ordeal in all 4 Gospels.


Magneto:
1. Going through hardship to eventually unlease full potential
Magneto went through the agony of seeing his mother's murder and this was the catalyst which unleased his power. It was the sadness and anger at seeing a loved one die which made him into what he eventually was. The greatest moment of his display of his abilty was when Professor X pointed out that it was to strike a balance between joy and anger.
Jesus Christ went through the anguish of being sent by God on earth for the ultimate mission. I don't think he totally enjoyed, especially as it got harder and harder. Yup, he made many dear friends and companions but the constant buildup until the final week was really awful for him. Facing the sickening snobbish hypocrites. Getting maligned for being a con-man and/or freak. Knowing before hand that one very close will betray you for like money not even enough to buy a proper meal, another super loyal khaki will deny you three times, the others will flee and disperse for cover, those who respected you previously will mock you while you are nailed to two pieces of wood hanging in the sun for an entire day, saying "Father forgive them for they know not what they do" before saying "It is finished". Jesus indeed attained the best balance, anger over sin itself, while still loving those who do so. Well, the most joyful thing is that he accomplished what would have been Mission Impossible for any human being.

For more, read the 4 Gospels, especially the Gospel of John, on his internal emotional battle...

2. Mutant and proud of it
It was Magneto who taught Mystique to stop being so ashamed of her abilities (her actual blue skin which assists her to have chamelon-like abilties). That why at the end Mystique was able to remark to Beast before she defected over to Magneto camp that they have to remember that they are "mutant and proud".
Jesus Christ accepts us for the way we are. What has the potential in making us sin, he also sees it as a form of beauty in us, abilties which can be moulded to later serve his cause only if we accept him as saviour. Afterall we are originally made in the image of this ultimate superhero. So, thus upon accepting Christ, we are really proclaiming to everyone, "follower of Christ and proud!"

But God demonstrates his love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us
Romans 5:8
Believers in humble circumstances ought to take pride in their high position
James 1:9

3. Brotherhood of mutants
Yup, Magneto starts this brotherhood of mutants in the end, which sad to say in the movie, is the villian gang for the upcoming sequels, where fellow mutants take fend for each other, but by being on the offensive against ordinary humans.
Jesus Christ started the first church (Him and the 12 disciples) with a brotherhood where all believers support and care for one another. Thankfully, Jesus never believed in staying on offense mode constantly... The most serious offense mode he ever displayed was ransacking the church's pasar malam only. Sarcasm to the Pharisees was so minor....

All the believers were one in heart and mind.
Acts 4:32


Seems like for now Professor X wins Magneto narrowly in the Christ-like traits scorecard. However if I'm given a choice on features I prefer, Micheal Fassbender beats James McAvoy hands down la. Afterall, I don't remember any portrayal of Jesus being botak... :P

Well, one thing we know for sure that the movie is really spot on. In the poster it said, "Witness the moment that will change our world". When Cross-Man comes again it is really gonna be that.

Movie Mayhem with God Part 4: The Lost Bladesman

This is the most current movie I've watched in threatres. Yup, the lead is none other than a revered historical figure in China, 关云长 a.k.a. 关公. Amongst so many numerous positive Chinese historical figures, he is one of the few who is able to be elevated to the status of a deity and worshipped (Confucius and 岳飞 being the only others I can think of for the time being), one would wonder why?

I'm not sure for other cultures, but I think our Chinese ancestors end up worshipping not really the historical characters per se, but more of their dedication in upholding certain universal virtues we hold so dear, even in the time of extreme adversity. Thus, I'll delve a bit into the plot of the movie. However I must emphasise, the movie is heavily fictionalised (of course for commercial and time constraint reasons of using film as the medium).

In the movie, the character undergoes a sort of trial not unlike Jesus' temptation by Satan in the desert for 40 days. He is sent by his god-brother cum ruler 刘备 on a rescue mission to the enemy side led by 曹操, who has held his god-brother's wife hostage. To his horror however, in this trip, some of the beliefs and values which he holds close are shaken.

Brotherhood & Loyalty- 曹操 knowing 关云长 has suppressed love and admiration for his god-brother's wife tempts his into defection by promising him to bethroth her to him.

Compassion for the people - 曹操 brings 关云长 around his kingdom, showing how he has provided the people under him with a relatively peaceful life with needs fulfiled, thus drilling in 关云长 the doubt of whether the ends justify the means, and is there really a need for a ruler who has a legitimate mandate as long as the people's needs are met.

Justice - 关云长 is waylaid on the way to rescue his god-brother's wife, by a certain town's general who is sent to stop him at whatever cost. That general exhibits compassion for his citizens evacuating them before 关云长 arrival. After the battle, the general asks 关云长 to promise to spare his township citizens. To 关云长's horror, the citizens want to fight him to death as they are grieved by the death of their general. Upon the arrival of 曹操, they are executed for inappropriate behaviour as 曹操 still wishes to sway 关云长. 关云长ends up feeling guilty for causing the deaths of these innocent lives.


During one of the extreme moments of temptation, 曹操 blasted 关云长 for his "blind" faith, saying "When you and I are long dead, you will be revered and worshipped, whereas I will be condemmed in history. However, those who do this are either fools like you, or people who wish to make use of fools like you". 曹操 also questions 关云长 whether he has ever had selfish desires to come into his own, saying he would provide him with all the power and authority, as long as he defected. Of course the movie is does not deviate from history and 关云长 finally emerges out of the trials, even more resolved to serve his god-brother. However even the historical fate of 关云长 resounds of many of Christ's disciples too...

After thr battle of Red Cliff, the three Kingdom era was officially established with 魏under 曹操、蜀under 刘备 and 吴under 孙权. Though 蜀&吴 kingdoms had forged an alliance in order to defeat 曹操 during the battle of Red Cliff, their alliance had been rocky, beset with suspicion of each other and internal rivalry. This eventually led the 吴ruler 孙权to approach 曹操 to do a joint surprise siege on a city guarded by 关云长 unawares. Eventually, the entire city was massacred, with 关云长 tragicly killed with his head decapitated with 曹操's side, while his body remained with the 吴 people who falsely claimed that they had rushed to assist but were too late. However this was just an opening to more mayhem as 曹操 used this event to openly crumble the 蜀吴alliance, through organising a state funeral in memory of 关云长, exposing the hypocrisy of all the 3 kingdom's rulers. Both the opening and closing of the film, which shows that funeral, 曹操 shows extreme respect for 关云长, wistfully saying that 关云长 had the potential to be a wolf, but he instead choose to be a lamb in wolf's clothing. He then remarks that all those involved in the politics of that era, 刘备、孙权、诸葛亮 were hypocrites, actually wolves in sheeps clothings, making use of 关云长 as a mere chess pawn. Then one of his officials questioned him "What about you, sir?" and 曹操 replied succintly "I never claimed I wasn't one", while wiping a tear but slowly turning a give a sly look.

Seems to end tragically at first glance but on second thought maybe not. The Chinese word 关云长 is always associated with is 义, meaning "loyalty and faith". In the ancient manuscript, the word 义 is written such that it actually comprises two characters symbols, 羊 (lamb) on top and 我 (me) on the bottom (the ancient manuscript of the word can be seen in the movie poster's background). Looking at it historically seems like the concept of having faith in one's beliefs means sacrificng one's own offering lamb (discard and sacrifice one's selfish desires ) in honour of God... For us Christians, we do not worship the first disciples per se, but we do honour them for their faith in sticking with their belief in Christ right till the end, and thus we too must emulate them, though we do it for praise from God, not human praise. Just as 关云长 kept reiterating in the film that he has no desire to become a hero and just wishes for peace for all through legitimate means, we believers just wish to serve the only true God. Amen.

for they loved human praise more than praise from God
John 12:43 (NIV)

Such a person's praise is not from other people, but from God.
Romans 2:29 (NIV)

We are not looking for praise from people, not from you or anyone else
1 Thessalonians 2:6 (NIV)

Movie Mayhem with God Part 3: Source Code

Finally a secular movie with God's positive wisdom! Though one tiny reason why I love this movie so, is that the lead actor Jake Gyllenhaal is a hunk... :P

Ok, back to the movie plot itself.
The lead "wakes up to find himself in the body of somebody else and finds out he is part of a mission to find the culprit of a certain train bombing". Sounds simple enough. Ah, when the time factor comes in, the poor lead, and us audience start to have a headache. Turns out that he is sort of "reliving the final 8 minutes of a certain victim in the train bombing."

Thus the initial action thriller part of the movie focuses on the lead trying to first find where the bomb on the train is, which passenger is the culprit and most importantly where this culprit has stashed his hide of another bigger amount of weapons for an even worse large scale bombing.

Then eventually the movie veers into the more philosophical, theological and emotional realm where the lead struggles with the concept of the mission. According to his superiors, the mission is solely to stop a future bombing. The 1st train bombing is considered past and irreversible. The leader however is unwilling to resign to this success alone. He hopes to prevent that "past bombing" since he is reliving that particular 8 minutes repeatedly and he has something for all the other innocent victims in that bombing (of course especially inclusive of an certain attractive spunky female lead). For the lead, the concept of events and time are not linear but could be parallel. He deduces and argues with one of the personnels in charge of the mission, that the future prevented 2nd bombing could have been a sort of "past event", thus justifying his rationale to give it a shot at remedying the 1st bombing. Ok, I'll leave the ending for you to find out when you head towards the theatres (please go soon, I don't think it will survive past next wednesday as it has run for more than 2 months).

The message from God in this movie is not so much of us being saviours like the lead to correct and remedy future and even past mistakes. Note that in the movie, the lead is a helicopter pilot in the US war on Afghan. He was selected for the special mission, as his life threatening injuries from the war matched closely that of that other victim in the 1st train bombing, thus the team "implanted his consciouness in to that 8 miniutes of parallel time of the victim before death".
We too have been chosen by God to be heroes in our own way, to serve in His mission.

As for time factor wise, I've no scientific background in the concept of time though I do have some inkling that Einstein did propose that time as we know it is actually dependant on the speed of light. Thus if the speed of light where altered, theoretically we go back/forward in time.
Looking in this light (literally and metaphorically), the 2nd coming of Christ may really be totally beyond human comprehension.

The main commander general and coordinator of The ultimate rescue mission is God, we believers are but soldiers chosen for our individual talent, skill, ability (as represented by the lead's injuries) to effect a tiny part of this grand mission. However, we must also never look down on the task we are entrusted with. This is partly mirrored by metaphorsis of the attitude of the lead in the movie.

In the initially "trial runs" of the 8 miniutes, the lead is clearly frustrated by his lack of knowledge of the mission and adopts a "get it over and done with" attitude. Later when he gets over the frustration, he is furious towards for culprit of the the 1st bombing and the 2nd plot. He also even harbours resentment towards the mission leaders who selected him, for not letting his body die naturally and thus leaving him conscious of his separation from his father. Later on nearing the climax, he develops a sense of attachment for all the victims in the 1st bombing and pleads with one of the chiefs in the project to let him try reversing the past, even though he knows that this may endanger the actual him's chances of survival.

During our walk with Chirst, a similar series of that replay occur along the way. We get frustrated with the seemingly impossible teachings of Christ we have to uphold and want to "get it over and done with". Other times we believers harbour anger both towards others (sinners, fellow believers and even God himself), thinking they are making our walk difficult, separating us from God! However each significant stage of our walk with God comes when we sacrifice some selfish desire to place of what God deems as a greater good.

In conclusion, let us perserve on in our walk with Him, for eventually "all things will be made good again through His ways".

For the perserving believer
I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith.
2 Timothy 4:7

In praise of God's ultimate mission
For the old order of things has passed away. He who is seated on the throne said "I am making everything new"
Revelations 21:4-5

I am the Alpha and the Omega, the First and the Last, the Beginning and the End.
Revelations 22:12

Movie Mayhem with God Part 2: The Black Swan

Another movie showing God's wisdom and truth like 告白, and sadly also a cautionary one.

The protaganist of The Black Swan is a ballerina (Natalie Portman's character) obssessed with attaining perfection for both the roles of the White Swan and the Black Swan in the Swan Lake dance.

Her diligence for striving for perfection in mastering both roles eventually drives her into paranoia (her view on a fellow ballerina who seems perfect for the black swan role mutates from sheer petty rivalry into envy and hatred). This then consumes the orginally "innocent White Swan" of her. However in the desperate self-effort to reconcile both sides of her, she goes into self mutilation, homosexual fantascies. However as the self-effort at reconcilation backfires, driving her opposite sides further apart, she finally "snaps and ends up killing herself".

A bit scared after watching the movie. This feeling I had after watching it was of fear and horror, as opposed to heavy-ladenness when watching 告白. Maybe it was because I had watched the movie when I was in the full eye of the storm turmoil with my ex-boss and ex-supervisor at my previous company then.

Part of my mental pysche was veering into Black Swan mode full speed ahead. Nasty, evil and even downright malicious thoughts against my supervisor festered continuously in my mind due to the immense stress I was under. This vicious cycle took a heavy emotional and spiritual toil on me then. Thankfully God stepped in the nick of time with an act of what seems like a disaster to me then, but was in effect a miracle.

That has been put behind, though not forgotten. The cautionary tale of this movie is more of when we rely on self effort in defining and striving for what we think is right versus wrong, we unknowingly get sucked into the confusion where eventually our faith in God dies, and we too die.

Can anyone teach knowledge to God, since even He judges the highest?
Job 21:22

The unbearable weight of not forgiving

For all who are struggling with the issue of why forgiveness is absolutely necessary, I highly recommend "Confessions" . I won't mention any specific spoilers to the show as I hope you all will watch it but I will still give a brief description of the movie's theme.

Due to the main character's motive, a horrifyingly wilful and selfish action of his sparks off a series of chain reactions with the other characters involved. However due to the inability of any of the characters involved in the movie to forgive one another, everyone ends up in "living hell" The concluding part of the movie depicts the main character's visualisation of what hell for him is and it is indeed his "press of the button" that triggered it. (Watch the movie to fully understand what I mean as it can be taken both literally and metaphorically.) I was very impacted after the movie due to its dark theme and felt quite heavy as I walked out of the cinema. It is a cautionary tale to me on how revenge can come full circle back to us when we fail to forgive. When we forgive others, we not just make it better for them, we actually make it better for ourselves. Amen.

Do not take revenge, but leave room for God's wrath. For it is written: "It is mine to avenge, I will repay" says the Lord.
Romans 12:19

Do not say "I will pay you back for this wrong" Wait for the Lord, and he will avenge you.
Proverbs 20:22

For if you forgive other people who sin against you, your Heavenly Father will also forgive you. But if you do not forgive others their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins.
Matthew 6:14-15