Watched the musical "December Rains" this National Day eve night with two friends and my cousin. Turns out that night I wasn't in very good emotional state due to some matters. This affected my mood so much such that during the performance break, I almost broke out into a quarrel with my cousin because she was late when meeting me. Thankfully with one of my friend as a mediator, both of us cooled down quickly before we made a fool of ourselves in public (moreover we happened to be sitting behind one of the major producers and song writer for the musical) . Whew! :P
After the musical, me and my cousin had a heart-to-heart talk where she apologised for her inconsideration for being late, lent a listening ear to my grouses over the matter and gave her advice. Finally, we bummed away the rest of the entire night, she experimenting with her latest Canon camera taking lots of photos and the two of us discussing about the musical.
On the way home next morning, there was a slight shower and luckily I was sheltered all the way home from the bus stop with the newly constructed sheltered walkway.
Upon reflection, I actually saw God speaking to me. In the musical, there was one scene where the female lead was having a quarrel with her mother and the mother replied "The rain is now approaching. You either stay under shelter or make sure your umbrella can wear the storm." One of the songs in the musical that touched me deeply was "我終于看到" (literally meaning "I Finally See"), though the context of the song used in the musical was slight different from how I'm applying it here.
Happens that on the day before the musical, my parents had asked me about the matters of concern and gave me their take and advice, but they had left me to decide. Usually my talks with me parents aren't very constructive, as we often end up quarrelling. This time thankfully it went very peaceful, though I didn't understand the gravity of it then.
When I returned home that National Day morning, I was expecting a big scolding from them but they displayed joyful relief instead. Yes, there were some sarcastic remarks but I could tell how happy they were when they got to know their fears were unfounded. One line my cousin had said from the quarrel struck me then. "You got to stop being so self-centered!"
Maybe with regards to other matters I am not so self-centered, but within my family, I definitely was. I realised how much I took my parents for granted. When all along I thought they couldn't be bothered with me, they were actually on the quiet look-out for me, fearing I may meet with difficulties I couldn't handle. Basically, I saw my parents' love for me in such HD. Its not that I didn't know my parents love me, just that it had become like a head knowledge concept or theory, instead of relationship. Most parents are like shelters, giving their children a place to hide from the storm, so that they down get drenched, just as God is the ultimate shelter for all. It is only under dire circumstances, e.g. heavy rain or a very hot day, do we notice and appreciate these shelters.
This blog is dedicated to my family shelter, my Dad and Mum. May God bless them and my sisters, both in health and spirit. Amen! :)
Psalms 61:4
I long to dwell in your tent forever and take refuge in the shelter of your wings.
Exodus 20:12
Honour your father and your mother, so that you may live long in the land the Lord your God is giving you.
